fuckyeahlildebbie: im not a loud person. im a high person. well said! &me too :]
had one helluva month.
i moved outta my apt with my bf. living back at my parentals casa. brought my babygirl with me! saving $$. planning on finally getting a car. and with in the next year or two having my OWN apt(no roommates, no boyfriends. just me n my bitch) ive been so up in the air and so down below ground. i dont know how to express how i feel sometimes.. i guess my bf n i are on sum sort of unsaid...
it’s funny how, almost every single day i seem to catch a dude checkin me out or tellin my how pretty i am. but yet the only person i wanna hear it from hasnt told me i was beautiful in monthsssss. man, its exhausting being involved in a relationship in which you know is ending but yet the two parties are just clinging to watever they possibly can just to hang on to each other for one more...
he used to look at me inbetween sweet sensual kisses with this look in his eye like i was the most beautiful girl he’d ever seen. now we barely see each other at all.
there was one time (well more than one time, but one time i really remember) that i was crying my eyes out, begging him not to leave me alone. i needed him. i really needed him that time (and every other time). and he chose to leave (which he always did).